so i leave my home and my life in 30ish hours for the entire summer to Lost Canyon. it's guaranteed to be a positive experience but that doesn't make it any less daunting.
on top of that, i have quite the future ahead of me once i return.
to be aware that God has been growing you for something is a scary realization.
to be aware that you are ready for something significant is a scary realization.
to be aware that a chapter of your life is ending and another is beginning is a scary realization.
i fade in and out of this fear as i fade in and out of those realizations.
a close friend of mine spoke to me recently about a verse he "couldn't get off of him." i liked that imagery, and i think that led to why i feel the same way about it now. it's Matthew 10:27.
I tell you these things in the dark, but I want you to tell them in the light. What you hear whispered in your ear you should shout from the rooftops.
i know this is the light in which i must speak, and these are the rooftops on which i must shout. because i know that the darkest times of my past were meant for this. His solace for my soul that brought me back to life in those moments were meant for this.
one of my best friends got married yesterday. i saw her go through extreme excitement, then suddenly feel anxious within that excitement, then go back to pure excitement. in the end, she experienced the happiest day of her life thus far. i totally get that.
there will be time to blog.
there will be time to take pictures.
i'll still be here. :)
alright, it's time to start doing laundry for this thing.
thank you all for shaping me into a person worthy of the call. :) love you beyond belief.
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